Mothers Day...Coming Soon

Payton's preschool did such a great job of celebrating their mothers! They sang a couple of songs and did interviews. I'll admit, I was scared to death of what Payton would say about me; "mommy has a boo-boo and lays on the couch" or "mommy is always sick". But I was pleasantly surprised. The last question was "you love mommy beacuse..." her answer was, "Because I love my family". It is so wonderful to me that she holds us all so dear. That girls loves her family unit and can't STAND it when it's 'broken' apart (work, school, ect).

I feel like I always make depressive posts about things. Don't get me wrong, I love my life (well a couple extra bucks would be great) and I CERTAINLY love my babies and my husband. But, it's days like Mother's Day that leave me feeling inadequate in many ways. Sure, I've had surgery and have been down for a bit. I know that alone will require time to get my energy back. But sometimes, I feel less than a mother.

I never hear of other mom's completely lacking in energy, I don't hear them feel overwhelmed. Is it just me? Is there something wrong with me?

Each and every one of my children are perfect and amazing in so many different ways. I shower them with kisses, hugs and cuddles. We laugh together, we play together (when I can stop cleaning and making sure the house isn't a complete disaster!).

But sometimes I am short with them and overwhelmed. I am tired, tired to the bone. I am 28. Why?

I can only hope that they don't see as much fault in me as I see in myself. I hope they will see me one day as I see my own mother. Strong, educated and hardworking - but most of all, I hope they see me as a woman that love them with all of my being and would do anything for them. That's who my mom is - I hope I can be like her.