Dear Blog

If you would quit requiring me to reset my password every time I want to post, then I would probably post more often!

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It's March! My birthday is around the corner and I will be a whopping 28 years old...I think. One starts to loose track after 25 I think.

For the first time in quite some time, the sun is shining through the curtains. If the warm weather would follow, it would be a perfect day. What to do when the sun is shining but the weather is cold? Probably stay inside.

Jack is getting his first tooth. The top was barely sticking out this morning. I'll admit it, I cried...just for a minute. It's the beginning of the last of our baby firsts. Don't get me wrong, I am more than satisfied with the number of children. Still, it's bitter sweet in some ways.

My little Emery is crazed. Absolutely crazed. She is for sure a climber, in all aspects of the word. If you turn your back you are likely to find her on the side table, the dining room table or Clarks computer desk. She of course thinks this is hilarious. Busy, busy, busy that one.

Payton looks like she has grown about 10 inches and acts like she has aged a couple of years (sometimes). She is such a wonderful big sister, a little mommy. She wants to do everything for the babies, well, most of the time! I try to tell her it's not her responsibility, but she says, "but mommy I want to!". So I let her help me sometimes.

School is going well, all to the credit of Clark I have to say. It's so nice to have the full support of your husband. I couldn't imagine trying to take this on and NOT have someone so loving and willing to do anything to help me succeed.

It seems like every time I have tried to go to school, I got pregnant! So now fours and three children later, we are trying it again! I WILL be a nurse!

There are a lot of people who question my ability to do this and the time I have to spend away from home. While they are right in thinking it will be hard, and it's hard for me to be away; the end result will make for a much brighter future for the family as a whole. We try to keep our eye on the 'prize' so-to-speak. That will make it all worth it in the end. The degree will certainly make me happy, I know that. But, it will also allow Payton to continue to be in gymnastics if she wants, allow Emery and Jack to explore what they enjoy. It will give us the opportunity to enrich their lives...the opportunity that one income with a family of five will not allow us to do.

Every family wants to give the world to their children. We do too, but the world comes at a price. We have to work, and work hard to get to that place. The place where headaches come from the noise of fighting and a dirty house, instead of the overwhelming sickness that comes from looking at your bottom line. We'll get there. But until we do, we'll keep on going and keep on making them smile as best we know how. Lots of love, lots of play and lots of time together. After all, that's what they will remember.